Question by El Misterioso: Why the hell was I born if I was supposed to suffer this way?
Since kid I have got the love form my grand parents and the rest of my family, I was raised in a Christian home and I am studying my second year of Languages Teaching at the University.

Everything sounds good until here. But I’ve done thing I can’t be proud about.
Since my first schools years and because of some stupid boys I started having some kind of sexual interaction with other guys and at later time sexual intercourse. I never care about it until now. I have realized that I’ve been living a double life: a secret one that not even my family know about and a public one.

I can’t live this way anymore. This type of life has brought me depression and unhappiness. I’ve done a lot of stupid things and I’ve had sex with guys I shouldn’t. I’d prefer die before to live like gay. My family doesn’t know anything abouit and probably they never will.

I can’t see myself in a future time. I feel I can be happy with a girl (because I’ve already had a girlfriend) but I think I’ll never have another one and much less get married because how am I going to tell her about my stupid past?

I really wanna die because I feel I’m alive just to be.
BTW, I’ve seen so much porn that I think I’ve turned addicted to it.

Best answer:

Answer by Paul R
Hi

Sorry you are having a difficult time.

Do you really need to live under a label, straight, bi, gay?

I understand exactly what you are saying but can you not just sit back for a while and see where life takes you. It is not nice to live a lie, but in reality your family really don’t need to know about your sexuality any time soon, if ever. It is none of their business.

It can be hard trying to come to terms with sexuality and some people never do.

I hope you can look forward as life is about more than just sex and sexuality. Don’t let something like this get you down. If necessary, change your life. Move far away, change career, take up new hobbies. Do anything that makes you happy.

Porn is adictive but it won’t kill ya!

Best wishes,
Paul

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